My me, me, me thoughts are always ready to jump back into action, especially when I have been working extra long hours and burning the candle on both ends. I’m beat mentally and physically. In my mind I’m doing what I think is right. Working hard for my family. Trying to support and provide for them at all costs. But what sometimes happens when I’m over working is I start to think in tunnel vision again. I’m working so hard on one thing, I lose focus on everything else going on around me. I begin thinking and feeling that everything revolves around me and that I’m the only person in the world, that matters. Those are the thoughts I work so hard at not having anymore. It just shows for me what happens when I’m not close to the program. I’m not staying spiritually fit. If I do not continue to do the things that got me here even when I think I am to busy, my old thinking takes over like it never left.
I’m grateful that this program works. I’m grateful to be more aware and to know when something is not right and feels off inside me. I can reflect on a bad week and prepare better for it for the next time. I will have busy weeks like that again but when I do, I will do better at keeping the program close. There were many ways I could have incorporated A.A. in that week but I didn’t because of X,Y, or Z. It doesn’t even need to be hard. All I have to do is “Keep it Simple”. Keep. It. Simple.
No one said it was going to be easy. They said it was going to get better. This program helps provide that opportunity. And because of that, my next crazy week will be better.
by Heath W.